I NEED A JOB!!!

Hello,
I am looking for a job, I have put in my resume and applications all over town. I went to this retirement home and put in an application for the kitchen, that was on Thursday and I had a TB skin test done. I was suppose to go back within 48 to 72 hours. On Saturday my son had a scrimage game at the park and then on Sunday I went to church so after that I just totally forgot about it. I am hoping that it does not ruin my chances of working. Even though I have experience I will only be getting paid 8 freaking dollors per hour. What kind of grown woman with two kids can make it on $8.00? Luckily my unemployment has kicked back in and that is a blessing because I did not think that it would because I have been unemployed for over an year, actually nearly two as I think about it.
School is starting back on next Tuesday and if it was not for the unemployment checks I would not even be able to afford school uniforms.

oops she did it again...

Hey everyone,
Omg let me begin by saying that my mom can not stop lying. She did it my whole childhood, and now she is attempting to do it with my children. Every since I had my daughter who just turned 3, my mom has been saying how Kailyn does not like her. Which is not true because she loves everyone, (hate is tought) especially if you have a car and a radio that she can sing along to. She has had nothing to do with her. My Aunt (my mother's sister) has spent more time with my kids here lately than she has in the last 3 years.
On this past Sunday She took them to church. Oh let me scratch that she took my son to church because when she got here at 10:15 (church starts at 11) my daughter was still asleep. I started to run her some bath water so that I can get her together. She is little only 25lbs so it did not hurt me much to get her up. I heard my mom call up stairs to me saying that if she was still asleep then she will not worry her by waking her and she take them out to Chuckie Cheese when she gets out of church. OK....
Well on that same day I had some business to take care of with this new job that I am planning on taking. I thought that she was going to take the kids so that I could handle my business. Oh no I she drove me out there and when she got there she and my two children went into a potential job site with me. I know right how embarassing!

When we left there, I asked if she was still taking the kids to Chuckie Cheese, and she said that there was no money on her card. My son had a doctors appointment today because he have been having some pain out of the same hip that he had surgery on a couple of years ago. My mom told them on Sunday that she would take them out today since she had no money on Sunday. Well she wanted to go to the doctors with me but after she embarrassed me like she did just two days earlier... uh no. I refused to take her call until after I found out what was going on with my son. I guess she called herself getting angry about that cause she suddenly "forgot" all about Chuckie Cheese. My aunt told me to remind her about it but I just can't talk to her for long because I know that 80% of the things she say are gonna be lies. I just do not want the saga to begin again with my children.

New term begins

I have returned from my trip. It was awesome!! I thought that some of my cousins here were pretty wild, but those girls in Columbus, GA were off the chain. My nickname is "Punkin" and I met a cousin who they call "Punkin" so it was kinda crazy when someone was calling for one of us and the both of us would answer. I just thank God that I was not at the hotel where my mother was staying. She had everyone there wanting to fight her. When she spoke it was always something off. For instance our cousin "Mi-Mi" said that she has divorced after 8 years, well momma had to say that she was married only months before she divorced. When everyone in Birmingham knows that the marriage was not even legal. She threatened to kick my 16 year old cousin through a wall. So yeah she was really playing that "crazy" role because she don't want to go through my aunt about her daughter.
Anyway...I enjoyed myself and it is all over. We are to do it again in 2012 here in Birmingham!!!
Now it is a new term I am so excited to start the Pharmacology class, not so much about the CompII because I can never get the APA format down, but hopefully I will this term.

It's my family reunion

Oh My God... I thought that today would never get here! I am so excited about going to Georgia in the morning. I don't have a job, and not a whole lot of money to spend on my trip, but I figure if I'm broke it really does not matter where I am, so I may as well enjoy myself with my family. Two weeks ago I packed my kids clothes and put them in the trunk of my car. I have an aunt who just laugh everytime I say that the clothes have been in the car for that long. I feel really bad about the money deal, but I am going to attempt to put on a happy face.
I took my son to get a haircut and instead of the normal $5 he charged me $10 because Shemar wanted to get a mohawk. I did not understand as to why it was more, because it was not like he was cutting more hair off. Now I do understand because it took him nearly 30 minutes to get out of the chair.
I bought my daughter some pull-ups and put gas in the car because the light was on. Now I have spent the spending money that I was going to take with me.
I went online to fill out some applications, and since I have worked with Wal-mart before I figured that I will put in with them again. I talked to one of the manager, who I worked with before (he's at a new location now) and he assured me that he would call me because the store does not have a full time cake decorator. He have not called I am starting to worry. I hate to worry about stuff because I begin to get pimples in my face, so bad. I am just going to have to pray about it and just put it in God's hands....

omg end of term

For the last couple of weeks I have been dealing with my crazy mother. She checked herself into a psych ward at a local hospital. She exclaimed that she wanted to take enough pills in order to not wake up ever again. Now you may can feel in my writing that there is no sympathy and here is why, When I was a child I felt this way as well. My mom told me that if I really wanted to kill myself that I would be dead by now. There was no sympathy for me. She has told me (at 9 years old) that she never wanted me and that if it was not for my grandparents then I would not even be here. "Who wants to get pregnant at 17, no I did'nt want you". Maybe I was the one who took it wrong but you know what I would have never said anything like that to either one of my children. I have two beautiful children that she will not have anything to do with. My daughter's name is Markailyn. I named her that because my son name is Shemar and I wanted some similarities in the name. Also my husbands name is Leonard but we call him Lynn. My mother however does not call my daughter by her name. She calls her Sweet Potato. Now that may sound cute, to some but I don't like it. That has been expressed but of course I do believe she does shit like that to piss me off.
We are at the end of the term and I have neglected my studies because of her. Has she ever done anything for me. Most of my life I lived with my grandmother. There was never a time that I can remember that she ever done anything or said anything nice to me. When I was 10 i had my first cycle. When it went off it did not come back till I was 12. My mother just knew that I was pregnant and instead of asking me if I was having sex (which I was not) every week or so she would make me pee in a cup. At the time I did not know why but now as an adult I realise what was going on. When I turned 12 she then went on and put me on birth control. And I still was not screwing around. I still blame her for me having sex at a young age because I figured well if she gave me condoms and bc then she must feel as if it is ok to have sex.
My only regret is that I worried about her, because she never worried about me. I ran away once, and I remember her saying to me the next day "Oh Bitch I did'nt worry, I slept good last night" but you know the Bible says that you will reep what you sew.
I know that I will most likely fail my comp class, but as God as my witness my only mistake was caring.......

Heavy,Heavy...

HI Everyone,
I am currently trying to lose some pounds before my family reunion next month. I know that I should have been doing this all along but hey I never really gave a care. This whole weight battle has been driving me crazy but I figured if I did not stress about it then it would be ok. I have been walking 40 minutes a day, and eating salads and parfaits for the last 3 weeks. I have actually lost 8lbs just by doing that. After I had my last kid I gained so much. She is turning 3 this year and I am finally doing something about it. I guess it is never too late!

unit 5

Hello all!
Today I finally got a chance to set my website up for my business. I make and sale candles and I recently began making soap and lotion. I am kind of stumped about how to price the soap. Whenever the site is ready to be searched I will post it in here just in case anyone wants to take a look at the candles. Maybe by then I will have figured out where to buy containers for the soap and lotion.

unit 4

Hey class!
For the past couple of weeks my lap top has been on the fritz!! The only way that I had been able to get into my seminar was because of my husbands work phone.
This makes me so very angry because now I am behind on my school work. I started out with A's but now I am down to a C in both classes because of this crazy pc, but it's going to be ok.

Mother's day!!!

Happy Mother's day to all moms!
Today I plan on finishing up some school work, then chilling. My son brought home this beaustiful mother's day poem from school on Friday. I did not get out to buy my mom a card. I make and sale candle so I will most likely give her some candles because I know that she likes to burn them. I am hoping that my husband takes me out to dinner today because I really do not want to wash any dishes today.

Birthday weekend

Hello all!
Today I slept all day just about. I was so tired from this past weekend. Saturday was my birthday. We celebrated on Sunday. My mom planned a party for my 30th birthday. We had lots of food and good music. I danced and I must say that my thighs are killing me! My son's birthday was yesterday so we drove up to Chattaooga to go to the Aquarium. The night before I did not sleep so I was very exhausted. I had to leave my 7 week old kitten home alone. I am so happy to see that she did not mess the house up.

I feel like dropping out

I don't know, it seems as if anything that I touch or attempt to do I always fail. I did so good in the first couple of terms, but now that I get here in Anatomy&Physiology and CompII it seems as if I will never pass. I mean, Geez this is my second time taking a&P and the last time I passed but I did not get a high enough grade to go on. The last time the professor said that I had copied, but I did not. There was some things that was looked up of course because it was on a subject that was not common knowledge. Now in this term I am still being accused. My subject was obese children and the many dangers that pose upon fat kids. I now fat kids and as a matter of fact a recent report says that Alabama is the "fatest" state, so you know I see fat kids all the time. My son is seven, soon to be eight and he has body image problems. He is not fat by a long shot, but because of teasing at school he comes home everyday and work out. He takes exercise to the extreme. This breaks my heart to see him like this because like I said, he is not fat. Somewhere down the line someone has mentioned something about his belly (which is slightly round) and he has been on the rampage every since. Now Shemar, will not eat his favorite foods with out taking a jog afterwards. In my eyes I see him as slightly odd simply because that is just not the way a typical 8 year old should act. If I feel this way then imagine how other children must conceive him. He already has to deal with teasing because of my skin color, why should have to suffer with name calling because of a weight problem that he does not have. I am very bright and as a child I was teased for having fair skin. I can not help the fact that my grandmother is biracial which leads to lighter skin. My mom is light skinned as well. I thought that by now that would be done and over with but as I see that is still a problem. I just pray that my son does not end up one of those bad kids on the front of a newspaper because of all the teasing.

Easter Weekend

All I have been doing this week is trying to make sure that my final papers sound good enough to turn in. I have read them a thousand time already.
Sunday was Easter. My son asked why he did not receive a Easter basket. Well, I consider myself to be a Christian, although I do not attend church every Sunday. I believe in God and the Bible. I explained to him that I refused to give in the commercialismof the holiday. A Easter bunny, Easter eggs and those yellow chicks have absolutely nothing to do with the true meaning of Easter. When I was a child I recieved baskets, but as an adult I just question the commercialism of it all.

Unit 8

Hello all!
Wow it has been awhile since I have blogged. This week I have been busy trying to catch up with my school work and trying to potty train my two year old. Even though I am here with her everyday, she does not seem to grasp the idea of the potty just yet.
My 92' Camaro broke down on me!! I know what you are thinking, "It was old anyways" but it was mine (without a car note). My husband says not to worry but I do. I worry because now we have a car note, and not a increase in income. Now I feel as if I should go back to work.
I really want to work in the medical field. I applied for a pharmacy tech position. I could get my certification and training right from the work place. However, that will mean that I will have to put my daughter into daycare. I don't want to have to pay anyone to watch my kid if I could do it myself, but I will to help out some.

Almost settled in

Hello Everyone,
Last week my family and I moved. I got so behind on my school work because of it. The whole thing was a rush job. Fortunately I had already packed most our things, and the things that I did not pack my husband packed. Let me let you guys in on a little secret (He totally screwed up LOL). He managed to pack my laptop. And I could not find it for days. I was able to log in to seminars through his work phone, which was the reason why I could not respond to answers quickly.
Through it all I am happy because,I am enjoying my new place and I am able to catch up with my school work.
I moved from a house to an apartment, and when I did I brought my appliances with me. The landlord did not give me any type of discount for me using my own stuff. That is where we moved from, now here appliances including;a stove,a fridge, washer and dryer, so I said that I would just sale my stuff that I had in the house.
Here is the dilema, the landlord at the old apartment called yesterday and left a very ugly message on my husbands answering machine. She said, "Mr. Nelson, you need to bring back the stove and fridge that you stole, I am going to call your place of employment and let them know that you are a theif, I have made a police report and I hope that they catch you and your wife and lock you up for a long time." Now when he initially told me what she said, I instantly got MAD because like I said I had purchased these things five years before we moved to this location. Now, I don't know if She is just stupid or she feels that every black person steals, but I soon stop being angry with her because she not only needs prayer, but she needs psychiatric assistance. Well that is all I have to write for this week. See you guys in class!

Ah... Let's see...
What can I tell you, well this week I have worked really hard on my thesis statement for my Comp II class. I love to write, but when it comes down to thesis statements, I totally lose it.

In my Anatomy&Physiology class, I find myself still stuggling to understand, but I guess I'll make it.

On a personal note though I received a digital camera for Christmas and I absolutely love that thing, but it somehow ended up in the washing machine because I forgot to take it out of my pocket. The only reason it was in there in the first place was because I was trying to keep it away from my two year old, who had it in the restroom.
When I saw my camera all wet, I simply cried like a baby. I don't know why I cried like that, and I am not usually a sensitive person. All I kept thinking was OMG I did this to myself. While I was thinking, more and more tears flowed down my cheeks. I guess it is kind of silly if you think about it but it was mine that my husband bought for me.

I also plan on moving to another apartment complex, because here we are totally cramped. This is a two bedroom and I really need a 3 so Off we go!
In my lease it says that I could either stay until my lease is over or I could put in a written two month form, informing the rental management that we will be gone in two months. The rent lady told me that we had to pay $3000 before we left. First of all it does not say that in our lease. I want to speak with a lawyer to keep myself in the clear.

Anyway... I think I have blogged enough for one day so I'll do this again next week! For my classmates, I see you in class!

Valentine weekend

This past weekend me and my family had planned on going to Tennesse to the aquarium, but on Friday we got a little snow. It was only enough to dust the ground but we do not get much snow down here, so of course our trip was cancelled.
On Saturday the kids went out onto the front lawn and played, while I stayed in the kitchen and worked on valentine baskets. I make and sale candles, and it was alot of standing in front of the stove (melting wax). My father in law wanted to know if I'd credit something for him. I wanted to say "hell to the No", but being the good samaritan that I am I said "ok".
On Sunday my brother and his girlfriend had a birthday party for their son at a Pizza Hut. I was late of course, as it was to start at 3pm and I ended up getting there at 4:30, but better late than never. My brother ordered a basket and he too wanted something on "credit".
I am just glad that everyone has their sweetheart a present so that I can stop seeing red.

Oh, before I forget, My valentine gift was so pretty!! I got a dozen of roses and a Apple Bottom purse. When I get a chance I am going to post some pictures,

The time is now 3 am. I am here finishing up on some valentine baskets. I started making and selling candles right before Christmas and I wanted to include them into the baskets. My daughter who is 2 years old loves to play in the gel. A couple of nights ago she got up around this time and totally destroyed around $70 worth of candle orders. Yes I was very angry. I am starting to get sleepy. My body is telling me to go lay down, but for some reason my mind is telling me to stay up.
I truly feel that I am sleep deprived. I have had the oddest sleep schedule every since I got laid off of my job which was around 6 months ago. I stay up really late and then I sleep most of the day until it is time to pick my son up from school. Then I help with homework and start on dinner. Then I usually would do any house work/or school work that I have not done. By this time I would realise that I have not completed a candle order. So then I would work on that. By the time I go to bed some nights the sun is about to come up.
I am glad we can do these blogs for extra points and besides it gives me something to do when I am up at this time of the morning.
Good night or rather Good morning